As many of our close friends and family know it’s been a long and difficult year, but we can finally announce with happy hearts that we are expecting a baby, September 18th, 2010!
This journey to parenthood has not been easy so far. We had our first pregnancy this past summer, the baby originally was due in april. When it ended unexpectedly, I have never experienced that amount of pain and heartbreak.
But now, our hearts are full again with the prospect of our new baby!
I would like to take a moment to thank some very patient and loving people who have helped us get to this point.
My mother, who flew down from El Paso to spend the whole week with me after the news, and during my D&C. Not to mention who had to listen to my endless phone calls and emotional rants in the months after.
My mother-in-law, who also spent the day in the hospital with me and Jared, and who also had to witness way too many emotional breakdowns, particularly over the holidays.
My sister, Kelly who has been pregnant this whole time and yet managed to be the most sensitive person ever, and never once flaunted her pregnancy. At times i would have to force her to bring the subject up, because she wouldn’t want to upset me. When, we all first found out that her baby, my baby, and my brother’s baby would all be born within the same month we thought “this is going to be SO much fun!”. (Note: being pregnant at the same time as your closest girls is only fun when no one loses their baby. Then it become un-fun VERY quickly.)
My funny friend, Allison who not only showed up with a “Bucket of Happiness” the day of the bad news, but has happily distracted me and encouraged me the first few weeks of this pregnancy when I was convinced it was going to end at any second.
My friend, Molly (who many of you know from second-shooting your weddings) who tolerated many emotional breakdowns to and from weddings and always said “If you need to step out at any time, just go for it, I’ll take over!”
And to my Fall brides & grooms (who, if I did my job right, never knew any of this was going on). I can’t believe how amazing my couples have been this fall. Their weddings were a pleasure and there was no stress whatsoever. I especially wish to thank my Sept. 18 & 19 weddings. That double-wedding weekend occurred just 24 hours within hearing the bad news from the world’s worst ultrasound. I don’t think I could have pulled that weekend off if those couples and their families hadn’t been so amazing. (And again, they didn’t even know! That’s just how they are normally: kind, stress-free, and gracious!)
And now I need to apologize to a few “people”. One being God, who I would occasionally name-call on particularly hormonal days. (Sorry, man. We’re cool now, right?) And the other two are my baby-neices due in May, Reese and Carson who I am ashamed to say I basically pretended didn’t exist for several months there. Aunt Katie is getting her act together just in time though. No worries, girls.
Though this time has been awful. I’ve always believed that God is good, and his plan is way better than mine. And here are some great things that have come out of this:
1. My husband and I are closer than ever. He rocks. I love him. And he’s super hot.
2. I’m humbled by our creator. I though I could plan my entire life. I thought I was in control. Boy, was I wrong. I’ve had to learn to trust him. His will. His timing.
3. I will NEVER take this baby for granted. Mark my words. I don’t care if I am sleep-deprived, getting up in the middle of the night for feedings, dealing with terrible twos, getting yelled at during the rebellious teen years. I’m ready for it all. This baby has NO idea how badly I want them, and how much I already love them!
If you’re dealing with a miscarriage, and need someone to talk to, shoot me an email. I’m NO expert by any means, but I’m a great listener, and would love to hear your story.
Thanks for listening, and please pray that the next 30 weeks go smoothly. Our baby has a heartbeat, which mean the risk of miscarriage goes down from 25% to 2%. Here’s hoping that this pregnancy will end in a baby!