I am a Runner.
Well, don’t get too excited. I’ve been a runner…for three weeks. But hey! Supposedly 3 weeks is all it takes to make a habit, so maybe, just maybe…
I am a Runner.
The last three weeks have been strange. my ducks have been in a row. It’s not just running. I’ve been eating great. The house is clean and organized. I’ve had a home-cooked meal ready for dinner. I’ve been reading more, crafting more, serving more. Truly enjoying life.
What’s my secret?
I’m trying this great new diet called ‘Jesus Christ’. (Shh…listen closely.. Hear that? the sound of browsers being closed across the country?)
Yes. I know Jesus is a controversial name to throw out there. (to be honest I really don’t know why it’s SO controversial. If you read the guy’s life, you’ll find the only things he talks about are love, kindness, serving, giving money to the poor, love, love, love, love. Man, what a jerk.)
For three weeks, I’ve been ‘tithing my time’ to God. I’m sure you’ve heard of tithing your money. The concept is giving God your first 10% of your money even if you think you don’t have enough to spare, then miraculously he will multiply what you have left and it will be enough to meet your needs and more. It’s a phenomenon that I have seen work every single month since we’ve been married. And believe me, the first year we were married, the two of us combined made around $500 per month and my health insurance was $265. (Getting married while still in college is a BRILLIANT financial plan.) But even so, we nervously gave 50 whole dollars away every month, and sure enough every month, we were blessed with more than we needed. This is the ONLY time in the bible says that God says “Test me on this”.
But, this is a new concept of tithing. Tithing your time. Giving God the FIRST ten percent of your day, even if you don’t think you have a minute to spare. And see what he does with the rest of it. If your experience is anything like my last three weeks, you will be more focused, get more done, and have more free time at the end of your day then ever before. The key phrase is what HE will do with it. I like to convince myself that this is MY life, MY time, MY stress, MY to-do list. Everything is terribly important to ME. The minute you submit and give your day to God and say “I had some plans, but feel free to do with my day whatever you see fit.” Everything shifts from me-focused, to God-focused.
Furthermore if you think of your time and life as a gift and not as something you deserve, EVERYTHING changes.
A simple example is when Callie was first born, she didn’t sleep a MINUTE the first two nights. I felt riddled with anxiety as soon as the sun would go down, thinking, “I wonder if I’ll get any sleep at all tonight.” I was hoarding my time. I was used to eight hours of sleep. I expected eight hours of sleep. I deserved eight hours of sleep. Callie was taking hours from me that were mine.
On the third night I tried something different. I thought, “Tonight I expect zero hours of sleep. I am going to have an up-all-night sleepover with my precious baby girl. We’re going to rock and dance and sing and watch some tv. And we will not sleep. If she wants to sleep I will take it as an added bonus. A gift. But I expect zero. ” And then……she did! I probably got about 4 hours. Which in new-mom-hood is HUGE. It felt like a gift. Not an expectation.
Life is a gift. We don’t deserve anything. If we expect life to be a certain/perfect way, we will end up resentful and impatient. Me-focused. If we remember that we don’t deserve anything, then EVERYTHING is icing on the awesome life-cake.
P.S. 7 pounds down in 3 weeks. Not too shabby.